Where I've Been In 2015 So Far
So, I took a break for a bunch of different reasons.
I've had a lot of things to sort out. I won't go into detail as that would be a little bit boring. Suffice it to say that my battle with depression had a flare-up. There have been some things I've been dealing with, some being circumstances, some being difficult people, and some being my own issues revolving around my person, the reality and strength of my faith, and what I need to do to rebuild a relationship with Jesus that has been suffering for a while due to my unwillingness to talk about some of the things I've been going through or have already been through.
So I decided I'd start writing a memoir (I guess) about it. It's been very therapeutic, and I feel I've been able to be more honest with myself and start reconnecting with others, repairing some bridges, I guess, and start admitting to God how little I understand what's going on, and to start accepting how much I need Him, and how even when I don't feel like there are any answers, that I need to rely on the fact He's never failed before. I talk about it so much, and I know it's true, and I feel it sometimes, but I don't let it carry me or guide my feet like I should. Like the Rush of Fools song goes, "To label me a hypocrite would be only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be."
As much as I want to continue blogging here, I don't believe I'm capable of doing so in the state I'm in, nor do I think it's what God wants me to do right now. I think He just wants me to take some time to let Him be Lord again. I'm tired of the lip service, the caring what others think about what I believe. My priority should be Him, not someone's opinion or approval.
Another thing (aside from the personal) is that I'm planning to move my domain to Squarespace. What that's probably going to mean is that I will be migrating my blog from WordPress in order to work as exclusively in Squarespace as possible... but then I might not. The reason is that it simply does what I want to do more effectively and freely than WordPress. And I love WordPress, so that should tell you the difference is big enough.
During this time of personal revival, I'd love to keep hearing from you guys, so you can use the contact form here or click the social links at the top of the page (also at the bottom of this post).
Thanks for hanging out with me and for walking with me through this transition. I've been richly blessed by you people. No matter what state I'm in, high or low, Jesus is Lord, and thank God for that! See ya soon! :)